06-02-07

12:17 p.m.

Saturday, June 2, 2007

Thereís been a huge lapse of medication. I can feel my emotions going wild and my thoughts are all over the place. Today is one of those days that I fear Iím going to lose my job. I am worrying about how clean my house is. Iím worried that I smell bad even though Iím clean. I canít sleep and Iím afraid to talk to anyone because Iím sure I will say the wrong thing. I also canít stop cursing. I am fucking uncomfortable all the time now. The weekend doesnít make me happy.

I wish I had the time to get back to my doctor and tell him that I need a refill. I hate that I have to take medicine. I think coming down from it has made all my fears worse and Iím losing control of almost everything in my life including my own physical body.

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