Monday June 11, 2007

I have to work on my consistency. I have to work towards a keen sense of sales. I really wish I had a job in the medical field in which everything is generally black and white or an interesting shade of gray. What I�m doing is so foreign to me it doesn�t have lines or colors: it�s a blazing hot ball of chaos and movement. I am trying to make sense of the system that I�m learning and perhaps get the idea behind underwriting. I don�t see myself becoming a top salesperson. As soon as I hit the floor I will fall. I am sure of this although I don�t want to curse myself with failure. If it works I would have been successful a long time ago before I became so fatalistic and cynical.