06-11-07

12:21 p.m.

Monday June 11, 2007

I have to work on my consistency. I have to work towards a keen sense of sales. I really wish I had a job in the medical field in which everything is generally black and white or an interesting shade of gray. What Iím doing is so foreign to me it doesnít have lines or colors: itís a blazing hot ball of chaos and movement. I am trying to make sense of the system that Iím learning and perhaps get the idea behind underwriting. I donít see myself becoming a top salesperson. As soon as I hit the floor I will fall. I am sure of this although I donít want to curse myself with failure. If it works I would have been successful a long time ago before I became so fatalistic and cynical.

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